bang bang

seems that late nights are the only time my cover-letter juices are flowing. by the way, in case you were worried about me, my writing has gotten much better in the past two days. i guess talking about blockage is the best way to get rid of it.

anyway, job 2 and job 3 are now applied for. these three are the ones that really caught my eye. who knows whether i'm at all qualified, or whether they'll want to wait until january for me to start, or whether they're actually boring piece of shit jobs that just sound cool on paper. anyway, it's out of my hands now. more on the horizon, but i probably won't post about it anymore.

tomorrow is my fourth LSAT practice test. after that we have two more days (including another practice test), and then DONE! hooray for no more classes tuesday and thursday evenings. i'll still have to practice on my own for a month, but it shouldn't be too bad. i'll be quite happy once october first is over and done.

i've started going to the gym again. so far it's wednesdays and weekends. i went on sunday for the first time in maybe a month, and i was sore until today, when i went again. i'd forgotten what a great feeling that is--being sore, feeling used. it's nice.

today as i walked down the street after work i had the thought that quitting ultimate was the best decision i made all summer. the quality of my life has improved quite a bit in the last month. it's easier than i thought it'd be, not playing--easy enough, in fact, that most times i don't notice that there's something missing. that's not to say that i'm done with ultimate. rather, i consider this period a much-needed break from the sport and a wise avoidance of an emotionally unhealthy team dynamic that was more trouble than it was worth. i've been to two non-ambush tournaments this summer, poultry days and wildwood, both of which were fun and frustrating. i'd like to go to a couple more, maybe in the fall if the option is there. i'd like to play pickup but please not in the dust bowl. maybe the first tuesday i don't have class i'll trek down to prospect park with corey and pick up with eytan and others. that'd be a nice celebration, probably worth the two hours on the f-train. it's been a while since i took the f. maybe it's time to go back and say hi.

have people stopped posting? there seems to be a sort of hiatus going on. maybe that's just me over-noticing slight drops in post frequency as i squirm at my freezing cold desk for 8 hours a day. work has been pretty slow with occasional frenzies of activity. august is usually a dead month since europe basically closes for business. september is two weeks of budget and then two weeks of vacation (pretty much). the last two months of the year, though, are going to be INsane. in november we have a seminar in kenya (i'm edging my way in there), then an advisory meeting in NY, then thanksgiving, then a conference at yale, then in december we're having another conference (on harm reduction--that'll be fun) and then my boss is going to indonesia and then the year is over and i might be moving. oy christ. when i see it all written down like that, i realize that five months really isn't a lot of time. i guess i should start saying goodbye now.

my work is done. goodnight.